I grew facial hair.
at the time it was to signify to myself in some shallow and fundamentaly silly way that something had changed. And yet to think that change coul occur as such so sudenly is silly. Silly like a solipsism. Slippy Sloo Sly. Semantics aside I find myself roughly in the same place. Where and when do we signify growth or a progression? Ionno. It seems odd. I don't think i've changed much.
But on the plus side!
good changes:
- taller, apparantly mustache thing is working good on looks or at least my family says and they should know seeing as how they were all quite blunt about calling me fat.
- More self-confidence. Asked Lauren out to lunch, twice, in person too. So there's something
- Learning how to flirt in a non-flirty way. That sounds ridiculously gay, but aside from that, it's true. Ionno. Empathy seems a better word. Maybe nice guys finish last but you know even if i don't get the girl who works the stand at the Zotstore at school you made her morning a bit by making her smile so whatever.
- Better music taste. The White Stripes. Oasis. The 'Juno' soundtrack. The 'Once' soundtrack.
- Offset by a continued devotion to well-produced popular rock.
- Hanging out with friends: while a continued morning grab breakfast at the only place that is open at 9 in the morning has become a ritual that happens only after class, it's still something.
Am still:
- enjoying the Oscars way too much for a straight guy
- utterly convinced that I'm significantly more 'girly' than a lot of my female friends
- unable to find a time or place to ride my new bike
- looking for someone
- playing way too many games
- drinking way too much diet pepsi.
- not posting enough
- not getting that 'Once' dvd back from Talisa's place.
- utterly and entirely jonesing for more of 'The Office'
